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“This queue is for the cab?” I heard the polite voice in a low tone.
“Yes” was my reflective reply
“Ah so big?”
“umm hmmm” and I shrugged. “When I saw it I was like Wooohhh, but I am too tired to take the train”
“Yeah, same here” she said with a smile.
She was wearing a local traditional dress but with stylish touch. Silk and pure white, her shirt was made of net and she wore a white singlet inside. Proper blush on her cheek bones and she picked a natural tone for the lips. Her eyes were adorned with green eye shadow which rather suited her. Not to forget her high heels, shoes in black and golden combination. She was pretty.

In our conversation I found out she looked younger than her age and it was impossible to believe she was a mother of two. I now know where she works and I felt compelled to visit her just to say “Hi” but later decided not to. Give me a day or two to get her out of my mind.

Ohh by the way, I bought an external Hard Disk 320 GB. I am not sure why or if I really needed one, but ah well, maybe it will come handy sometime.

Difficult Situations

I feel I am not really good emotionally and expressively when it comes to deal certain problems specially if they are between friends and they concern emotional yet ethical issues. I have (perhaps most of the time) given priority to ethics over the feelings, emotions, even friends. But yes I hate to be caught up as a sandwich. Often I will try to convey my view point indirectly and rarely, direct, in polite ways. But yes it is exasperating.

Puala Pangkor

I am sick. Flu and fever. And I was actually looking forward for this weekend so I can do a lot of pending work as well as sleep as much as I can. My office colleagues want me to go with them to Puala Pangkor and I am - was resistant; I didn’t want to spend more at this point as I already did a lot last month and I have other plans. And of course this weekend was planed for a long sleep, wasn’t it?

And since morning as the fever and flu worsened I started to think, not to go and they started to push to come along. Probably in next 4-5 hours we are scheduled to leave in the middle of night so in the morning we can catch the ferry, and I just did a little search to see where exactly this place was and what exactly was there. I found more then 4 thousand pictures tagged with Pangkor on flickr and here are few links. I guess I am more convinced with these pictures then the long speeches they gave me about the place from past 2 weeks.

I am sick. Flu and fever. But I think, I am going there tonight.

PS: I cant find my sucky camera :\

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Okay enough. This way I will endup posting hundreds.

I shall be back.

Past few weeks have been crazy. Immense work load, moving and also some personal things. Although I will be busy next week too, but it’s a short week so hopefully things will turn back to normal. I am suppose to write a lot, but I am not sure if I will be able to when I actually sit back to write. Sigh.

I shall be back – soon.

The Pakistani Spectator

Wanted to blog, but I have been really busy at work. The less available time, I spent in answering The Pakistani Spectator’s interview. Here is the direct link.

Aamir Khan’s Blog.

Good God, I didn’t know my all time favorite actor had a blog. The site is pretty simple, a link to chat and the blog. I am too sleepy at the moment, but thought I would share it first.

Here you go, the link.

Dr. Farrukh Malik's opinion

Dr. Farrukk Malik’s honest opinion about my blog, here is an excerpt.

Link to post.

It’s for the first time that I encountered JonyBr at Random Thoughts on Random nights. I happened to read two of the posts with this blog, one titled strange feelings in which the author was not able make the point to why he is writing it all. It didn’t touched me, having read this I clicked away to the home page where I happened to read the top most post present titled You can not make everyone happy. The title was really attractive but when I end up reading this post, I though hmmm ordinary but I will say the write ups were some regular musing that ought to go around and I must respect the choice of the blogger to what he/she wants to write.

It made me smile for 3 immediate thoughts.

1. This is exactly what I meant in my post You can not make everyone happy.
2. This also reminded me something from Mathew (7:1-2) “Judge not, lest you be judged” and a previous post here.
3. This actually increases my ratings on blog ratings sites such as Technorati because of the track back/link. Ah, well, I returned the favor.

You can not make everyone Happy

On 2^nd of Jan I found out it was a birthday of one of the colleague. We are on friendly terms and since she was working too hard from past few weeks I decided to buy a cake for her as a good gesture. Of-course I hoped it might make her feel nice. But a cake without candles? So I ended up buying 36 candles as well, and we actually had a small birthday party in the end. Indeed, as hoped, I think she was touched and said thank you.

But to my surprise I later learnt no matter what you do to spread small pieces of joys you can never make everyone happy. There will always be people, who, for the strangest reasons won’t appreciate, even if you only see them like once a week and for only to say a Hello. Some even said it right at my face and I was like “huh what?”. Argggggg.

Strange Feelings

After having a quite lonely new year’s start like always I woke up at 6 AM while it was still dark outside. Since I still had a little time I decided to check my mails first, and ended up on one of the blog which is subscribed in my list. And she (the author) spoke about the phone call she made and how she heard the sound of breaths on the other side, and her thoughts while listening to those breaths. In a complete silence, when you only hear three things, the ticks of clock, your own breath and the thoughts in your head – I didn’t know what I felt, but I do know whatever that emotion was, it was immense. It was pleasing and painful at the same time.

Friday Prayer

Alas. It’s a time of shame and embarrassment. I mean really, I feel ashamed. I was so busy, working, that I even forgot it was Friday and I am supposed to leave for a Friday prayer. And it was an Indian, a Hindu friend to remind and ask “Don’t you have to go for a prayer today?”.

“Oh shit, yes I have to”

“How can you forget a Friday prayer?” he asked, and I was speechless.

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New Year's Night

My New Year eve was spent at home, staying online. Even the online world seemed deserted. Only fifteen minutes before the midnight we went out, found a place some 5 miles away from twin towers and watched the fireworks, from far far away, in small glittering manner. It looked beautiful. As much as I wanted to see it from as near as possible I equally would have hated the crowd and the rush. But bless those people who took some magical pictures and uploaded on flickr, so I can share them here. Anyone interested to see how it may have been can get an idea from these lovely pictures.

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