Tuesday, December 27, 2005

I hate myself.

At around 10:30 this morning when I had to stop on the traffic signal, this old guy reached me and asked for a lift. The auto response of my senses was “No” with a shake of my head, as 99% of the time people reaching you at the signals are the beggars. And because of the law and order situation I am never comfortable giving anyone a lift either.

He stepped off.

I looked at him moving off and realized he was just an old man. While I was still in the dilemma to ask him, to come back, or let go, signal went green and he moved a bit too far too. I moved on – trying to find him in the back mirror. Miserably hating myself and asking, if need be, why would anyone help me when I couldn’t (didn’t) help others? That too at the cost of nothing, when all I had to do was say “Yes” – or wouldn’t God ask why I seek refuge now when I didn’t help His creatures?

8 comments:

Raj said...

This is a classic catch 22 situation. Don't blame yourself. Such things happen.

Anonymous said...

Well, I am guilty of such felony too :(

inspirex said...

dude....
sometimes there just is no getting out of it.....

Anonymous said...

The last time i gave someone a lift, he started asking me for money because of the situation of his family. The bad thing was that i tried to give him some money but he wanted more and wouldn't get out of the car till i screamed at him to get out.... after that, i have stopped giving lifts to ppl.

Raheel Lakhani said...

you can't trust anybody.. you could have give some busfare to him.(just an advice for some another day)

JonyBr said...

Last time i gave lift to this guy...he just wouldnt get out of my car :S...& i had to tell him, look, i ll be in there for maybe hours and i cant let u sit inside my car, i dont know u *mad* errrrrr.

But still, u cant get rid of feeling guilty when u say No.

inspirex said...

Dude, this reminds me of an incident i had. Just like zag, but a kid. He was telling stories about his family and asked for money to buy foodstuff. I decided to buy him the stuff instead but ended up paying dearly for a little philanthropy!

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